Dave pointed out a website with some interesting resources in one of his posts. Had a drink with him last night as he passed off a rough draft of his thesis for me to look at and edit. A few of international students were out as well as the lovely L, there was much talk of careers, business trips, economics, war and investing or not investing in the country of Vietnam. All this talk had it’s usual effect and I started to feel a bit out of place being poor, out of work and an actor. Still it was a nice night and I hadn’t seen Dave or L for about two months or so.
To put it plainly, I’ve got a lot more to do. I’ve revised this entry from its original five paragraphs because the point I was dancing around was: On all sides I am surrounded by a need to move with the majority of the people I know and settle down and start a career or at least try. At the same time I am continually re-shaping my life and saying: Not yet. I need a fluency in another language. I need my MFA in Acting. I need to live in another country for a while. I need hundreds of strange pictures to hang upon my wall and stories to tell my students and grandchildren.
I will have to live with that insecurity in order to be able to say one day that I have lived a full and productive life. I do not want to be on my deathbed and look back and say “I lived for the weekends.” I want to build my life around my contributions to others. If I end up having a living making cabinets, I want to make damn fine cabinets, the best cabinets in all the land.
The Revolution a la Brian Giles started in the storage room of W&C’s annex three years and eighteen days ago.
Be Promethean, do not be complacent.
Do not turn back, do not let the world stay flat.
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This I feel I should point out, will be the hundredth post on the site. Mark was talking the other day about not quite hitting his stride with his website yet; I don’t know if, after a hundred, I’ve quite hit my stride in terms of content either. Still the posts keep on coming, and perhaps more frequently now that we’ve got our wireless network Bandieria Rossa (I realize it’s misspelled) up and running at the apartment on Kellogg St.
April 23, 2008 at 12:32 am
calling proper respects for credit on letting the world stay flat. my lawyers will be in touch. Harrumph.
i love you.
April 25, 2008 at 11:11 pm
That site is exactly what i was looking for. I knew there had to be something like that out there, i just couldn’t seem to find it. Thank you for passing it along.
April 25, 2008 at 11:18 pm
Also: i love you too.